Racing Against Time

It day 2 post quitting. I should be thrilled to not have to put up with juvenile malicious behaviour at a place where i'd long outgrown my usefulness. I left with a job, so technically I'm not unemployed which was my biggest fear when i quit a few months ago without a job in hand. I should be ecstatic that I've a whole month off, all to myself to do as I please. And yet I'm caught in a strange sort of anxiety. Its as if this time is precious, and I'll never get it back and I must squeeze out every drop of joy I can get over the next 4 weeks because once I start the job grind again, I'll not be able to do even a fraction of what i could achieve now.

Great. So now I've the time and the leisure but the only problem is there's just so much I want to do, I just don't know where to begin. I've three parallel book ideas running in my head and I having the worst time ever trying to figure out which one is closest to my heart. I want to cook my heart out and blog about it. I want to exercise and get my 22 year old body back. I want to revamp my wardrobe. I want to watch movies. I want to play my piano.

I've realised that I've become so used to being stressed and angry and chasing something all the time, that when I don't have that I start inventing things. My latest obsession is to get the other job I've interviewed for just so I can get another month off to do all these lovely things on my to-do list. I've lost it haven't I?

So here's my to do list for the next month -

1. Write 500 words a day - on any of the stories buzzing around in my brain. Blog updates don't count

2. Play the piano for an hour everyday

3. Exercise, Exercise, Exercise!

4. Cook 4 times a week at least

5. Revamp wardrobe - This is a task on so many different levels, its got sub-tasks

- clean out junk aka current wardrobe

- figure out what my work clothes style is going to be. I'm so tired of trousers and collared full sleeve shirts

- Make a list of Must Haves

- DO NOT buy any more SHOES

Let's see how we do then. Also, if you've taken the time to read this so far, please pray I get the other job so i can have another months vacation? Pretty please?